Be in the center and dance

The seat assignment exercise, I felt like it was meant to challenge me more than anyone else.
I saw my position right in the center of the whole room. *Thank God my mom Tina was right next to me. XD

It was more uncomfortable placing a seat there than kneeling, than dancing there.
I was nervous enough to tremble.  I wasn't able to leave my chair there. I returned where I was before the exercise after.

I have made so many mistakes and caused so many troubles with my gifts before, I prefer to not stand out. Especially in Church and school. Yet He would challenge me: "You are in the limelight outside in the world, how come you don't want to be in the limelight in church?"

Well that hit the nail.
I can do public speaking in convention, with a room full of 50 people or more about animation, I can go out and talk to my fans and do very well advertising for my work, organize more than 20 people to put together my project. But I rather be passive about using my gifts for the church.

I just want to be the soldier that I said I would like to be, so I follow every prompting He gave me this Sunday, no matter how uncomfortable it is.

A soldier follows the Command 100%, to get the mission completed. I am working toward that. I know i haven't reached it yet.

So far, the hardest would be to join the prayer meeting regularly for me.

God's message seems to have changed from "Talk to me, tell me what your heart desires" to "Dance with me, enjoy the moment with me."

Exodus 15:19-21
For the horse of Pharaoh went in with his chariots and with his horsemen into the sea, and the LORD brought again the waters of the sea upon them; but the children of Israel went on dry land in the midst of the sea. And Miriam the prophetess, the sister of Aaron, took a timbrel in her hand; and all the women went out after her with timbrels and with dances. And Miriam answered them, Sing ye to the LORD, for he hath triumphed gloriously; the horse and his rider hath he thrown into the sea.

Psalm 30:11
You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,

Jeremiah 3:31-3-5
"I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness. I will build you up again and you will be rebuilt, O Virgin Israel. Again you will take up your tambourines and go out to dance with the joyful."

I hope everyone will eventually loosen up and join God's jolly self and enjoy Him. I know it's a challenge, and it's awkward for some, who's not used to it.
It will take a while, but just a little steps would help. His invitation is not just for those of us who look charismatic, but for everyone.

Imagine an being of light stands in front of you and invite you to dance with a smile on His face, and this person has watched you, cared for you every waking, sleeping moment of your life. And He just want to enjoy this moment with you.
It's rather romantic. XD